.. tsk tsk ..

moving out. this place is better off w/o me. anes kate blog aku mcm gampang. muahahahahahahaha. which is nothing but the truth. well, click this twice.

silently LOUD

wish me luck.

i'm serious. freakin serious.

i know. i know. i still can't figure out how to enable the comment feature. what the hell. and the layout is a tad too out there for me. just bear w/ me. semi mid-life crisis.

i'm a self-confessed stalker. i might know you better than you expected. fret not. i mean no harm. profile/photo browsing and blog hopping definitely do me good. i become who i am today. desperately trying to be the one and only. to be uniquely me. hahahahahaha. laugh. vain. kan anes?

i'm trying to write something serious act. being my first attempt, i failed miserably. i envy you. so young yet so loud. you make a statement as you utter your words. tsk. tsk. aik, td kate nak jd uniquely me. whatever.

wish me luck. to have the comment block again. so we can converse virtually. and because i love you all so much;

1. abie
   
2. riri
3. anes
4. azra

the small bunch of this blog groupie. awwwwwww.

taking a bull by the horns

i took a cab to work today. it cost me $8.30 for my first kilometer. well, that's taking a bull by the horns i say.

accidentally in love

last night, i had an accident, don't worry i'm ok. but my car hasn't been so lucky. and i doesn't really have any intention to cite how i ended up w/ smashed fender and broken tyre. i've got no interest in doing so. cos what hit me harder is the fact that i've fall in love w/ the same man all over again. and it's all because of the accident.

you see, i was so devastated by the accident, apart from the fact that it was due to one ignorance jerk on a motorbike, it occurred right in the middle of my busiest week. w/ all the pending assignments and plan i've made, this is something i really can't handle. but, here i am running around making police report and all, when the due date for my assignment is act. tomorrow (i'm taking emergency leave today).

i need my car. i can't afford to keep it in the workshop waiting for the insurance to pay for it. and this very part over here is when i think i've fall in love.

right after the accident, he sent me home and told me not to worry much. and that is all i can do last nite, worrying.

but w/o me knowing, he went to his boss place, sell off some of his work (do i need to explain this?), borrowed some cash from his colleague and agreed to do some odd job (house painting & help w/ packing as they are relocating) so that we can afford to pay the repair job. how do i know this? well he came by to my house soaking wet and showed me the cash he managed to get. and w/ some skill of black mailing, he told me where the money came from.

and on that very moment all i can do was looked at him in the eye and smile. we didn't say a word but somehow we know for sure we always got each other's back. cheeessyyyy aight?. but what the hell. i love you basit and will always do.

OMG. THE FIRST TAG. HOLD YOUR BREATH!

i never been tagged before. this is my first time. thanks to anies. so please understand my excitement. pardon my long & elaborate answer. i'm excited!. i am.

1. Siapa orang yang kau teringin nak tampar?
seriously, my auntie. but she's not worth it so i'm gonna stick to Aznil Nawawi. slapped!

2. Siapa kau nak jadi Sugar Daddy kau. Bagi sorang je, wajib Malaysian.
Tony Fernandes. apart from being the most coolest boss ever (he's my ex-boss mind you) don't you find his english nowadays somewhat HOT?

3. Siapa manusia paling annoying kau pernah jumpa? Siapa orang paling famous kau pernah jumpa? Siapakah orang paling vain kau pernah jumpa?
ANNOYING - Aznil
FAMOUS - Mahathir
VAIN - Me

4. Apa yang kau paling harapkan dari pasangan kau?
not to stress out unnecessarily

5. Kau penah kentut dalam lif?
for coz!. gile ke tak penah.

6. Makanan paling jijik kau pernah makan?
sardine cap ayam. don't get me wrong, i love sardine. esp kalau mkn ngan roti canai. tp ia adalah ngeri. ikan tu tak siang sgt. w/ all the guts still attached, masuk dlm tin. sealed. rebus/masak dlm tin. all the chemical reaction involved sampai tulang dia jd sgt lembut. what on earth can turn bones into jelly? and how can you tell the red liquid is really a ketchup?. tp sedapkan sambal sardin?

7. Rancangan Tv paling bodoh kau pernah tengok?
those sketch shows on astro ceria. tak kelaka weh. kesian.

8. Kalau terperangkap dlm jem, pastu rasa terkencing, apa kau akan buat?
kepit dan kepit dan kepit lagi.

9. Kau stalk hp or email kekasih kau tak atau share paswed fb/email?
penah la. dulu. hahahaha. sekarang pon. tp stalk jek. sebab aku mmg stalker. kalau jumpa something yg mengarut confront jek terus. oh, never shared password kecuali ngan anies sbb soh dia jage kebun.

10. Kalau jumpa kucing kena langgar kete dah speruh mati kaki putus sume, kau buat ape?
oh, susah dowh soalan ni. aku tak tau nak buat ape. nangis pelan2 agar tidak ketara. doa bnyk2. tidakkkkkk. pass. tak nak jawab.

11. Apa perasaan kau bile tengok cermin sorang2?
hari ni nak makan nasi lemak sotong ke nasi ayam bonton?

12. Kalau kau jumpa gambar wanita bogel yang kau kenali (selain dari artis mahupun pelakon porn) dalam pc bf kau, apa kau buat?
i hate speculation so aku akan terus confront jek. kalau reasonable/acceptable, aku akan ada something utk diungkit sepanjang hayat. but come to think about it, i probably dumped him.

13. Apa kau buat kalau kawan kau asyik mengadu benda yang sama berbulan2?Pastu orang nasihat taknak dgr.
depends. selalunye nasihat aku org denga. hahahahahahaha. no lah. i'm bad at giving advice. i tends to tell u what u want to hear. and if u decided to bother me over the same issue for months, be my guess. i found that amusing.

14. kalau nampak kawan ade taik idung nak terkeluar, atau ade 2 helai bulu hidung yg terlebih pjg terkeluar dr idung, bgtau direct ke, tarik tepi dan bisik ke, gelakkan ngan org lain ke atau buat tatau?
buat tatau. conflict avoidance. and because i hate awkwardness.

15. Hantu dari filem mana kau paling takut?
4bia - hantu dlm flight tu. tgk la weh. tgk la.

the day i decided to join power step

it's been a while since my last trip to the gym. ok tipu. i've only been to the gym twice, once when i accompanied basit and that was a year ago and the second trip happen just last week. right after terry make a nasty comment about my yucky tummy.

'hey, pegi power step tau, tgk perut you tu, tak cantik'

as offended as i am, tyiana tagged along. being late, all the best spots were taken (in the middle, hidden from peering eye of people & where it's ok to be sux) so we ended up being upfront. hehehehehe, instructor perasan terus sound,

'for those who just join, maybe you can placed yourself where you can observed other better'

soh dok belakang la tu kan. ces. i managed to have a spot in between 2 aunties yg bersungguh2 nak tunjuk diaorg adalah frequent in the class.

lil bit bout the class. it was held in the corner of the gym right in front of the big mirror. everyone need to take their own step board (is that what you called 'em?) from the equipment area and placed yourself somewhere appropriate in front of the gigantic mirror. somewhere behind in my case.

the instructor, mutha (i hope i got your name right) is one hot lady. a good motivator. she'll giving out instructions & teach us why are we doing all that jumping and stretching. and she sure know how to make us suffer.

the first step was a breeze. come on, like step up and down and make some movement w/ your hand to make it conveniently graceful. but how wrong i was, the moment mutha asked us to switch step from right to left. i was like 'WOOOO, HOLD ON' and lost. standing quietly trying to figure out which left was she's talking about?.

and mutha added more movement and managed to make it looked ridiculously impossible to do. half an hour later, i was struggling to catch my breath. while it's ok to give up (mutha said so but in more forgiving way. 'don't push yourself ok'), i just can't stop. why? because those two aunties showed no sign of deteriorating & boy they sure know how to work it out bebeh. i've pulled it off to the last step & just too freaking tired to stay for abs workout.

tyiana & i left early. spent more time in the shower than in the gym itself. long hot shower & we good to go. mcm ringan mcm tu. sihat jek. next week datang lagi kan babe.

guess where i was 5 minutes after that?. having a big plate of roti telur w/ plate of nasi lemak ayam. sigh.... sorry terry...

you're nasty!!!

i sweat like a pig. and i sweat easily.

just when i thought i should do something about it;

"you're filthy, why are you sweating like that?" - basit

huh, thank GOD for this amazing metabolism. i'm very much determined to let my sweat as they way it is.

back in track or not?

just when i thought the sun will shine once again, a beautiful make up session after every fight, hearing i love you before saying good bye....

maxis sent me a reminder. i'm about to reach my credit limit. dang!

.. i refused ..

i'm not a good advisor. believed me. i just tell you what you want to hear. if that makes me good. i'm guilty as charged. well that's what i'm trying to convey.

because when you try seek for guidance, people tends to tell you what they heard from others. or from the drama they watched over the tube. 'money is not everything'. try to say that to yourself when you have $ 2.35 in your account and 20 days to go before your pay day.

thus, i refused to ask for advice. i'll just posted it on my status and let the comment comes in. where in many cases, it rarely happens.